Did I love you enough?

  Did I love you enough? Did I show you what you meant to me?

Of course not, I didn't even know.

I didn't even know that you were so amazing. That you were the only person I really trusted in my life.

That you were the only one that could take care of my computer problems, my personal drama, fix anything, take care of our bills, make me laugh, plus finish our entire house inside and out. A skill set you had, O so amazing, but I didn't even know.

I didn't know how unique that was. I didn't get to tell you I am in awe of you.

I didn't get to tell you.

I would trade everything and anything for one more moment with you to tell you all of this.

I'd tell you how lucky I am to have met you. How special you are and how no one could ever be as cool as you, for me.

I'd hold you so tight and I'd never complain about your work schedule, or your meetings, or your social life. I would love you for it all, because you are perfect just as you are.

Did I love you enough?

Babes I ask myself this all the time, I loved you so much but could I have done better?

Could I have seen you more fully. Loved you more entirely? Praised you more freely?

Yes I could have.

I hope you can feel it now.

I am loving you.