I Miss You.
Babes, I just miss you. I miss you so much. I can’t wrap my head around this. I still choose you. I know you still would choose me. My higher self can take this and absorb the lessons, and in the day I am doing OK but the evenings, and mid days, and well really at random; I miss you with every part of me.
All of me misses you. It would be different if we broke up, if I could learn from this. If I had made mistakes or you just changed your mind. If we ended it. But you didn’t and I didn’t and while there are lessons I am learning, they are not mine. They are in the way of the world, I wouldn’t have done anything differently.
I miss my best friend. There is so much I want to tell you, things that only you would find funny or be excited about. Now that I am writing you I wonder if this will ever go away. Part of me doesn’t want it to, how could I ever not miss you? But at the same time, how can I live like this?
I find myself wondering, if this was the other way, how would you be? What would you be like right now if I had been in an accident and not you? I have no idea how you’d be. Well, honestly I think you would be strugling, you were so strong, but you really loved me. We never worked through this, how should I be if you are taken from me scenario.
I can’t even believe it, I miss you.
I am loving you